This is perhaps our favorite part of Sk8 Church. Everyday we get to witness incredible stories of lives that have been changed by the power of Jesus Christ. We believe these raw, unsensored, stories from our friends are modern day miracles. Hopefully you will be as encouraged as we are!

"You are the God who performs miracles; you display your power amoung the peoples." (Psalms 77:14)

From Cat age 20

10/7/2010

I wanted to let you know how things are going. As everyone knows I've struggled with a horrible eating disorder my whole life and my on again off again drug and alcohol dependence. I went to rehab for 28 days and now am continuing my recovery journey at a halfway house in delray beach, florida. The steps to get here have been tough and everyday is still a struggle. I've had to learn to be open, be honest, and how to communicate with people. When I was in steamboat I was a spoiled little girl that always got her way. What started as just innocent fun lead to a destructive behavior that put me in into a really dark place. The morning I went into rehab I remember telling myself that the only way I could stop doing what I was doing was to die. I quite honestly didn't want to stop using and I wasn't perfect enough to fit into this little box I believed I needed to fit in to. I went into rehab with the idea that maybe I could clean up enough to be able to drink and drug again. I went in there primarily for drugs thinking I could get away with an eating disorder. I didn't expect to grow and learn to enjoy who I am. It was tough and I had my best friend who is a junkie tell me my life scared her. To have someone who's a junkie think that my suicide attempts, drunk driving and friends deaths were bad and killing me put everything in place. I made a list of yets and met women who had done that once before gone to rehab and than accomplished all of those upon relapsing. Its scary to think that all those yets eventually happen and that in drug and alcohol use it always ends in jails, death, or institutions. I've learned that I can't blame anyone else for my actions this is my doing and I must take responsibility of my actions. The girl I went into rehab with relapsed exactly a week into being home, because it wasn't her time. Enough about that now I live in a community that is all about soberliving, they drug test you for restaruant jobs and there are no bars. It may sound lame and boring but its amazing. I go to a meeting a day, got a sponsor today :) and we always are meeting amazing people that are in recovery. I was just a spoiled little girl from steamboat that even though I wasn't yet arrested or homeless my behaviors would have brought me there. I still struggle everyday that I'm not this, or that I don't have that. But to be honest I'm so much happier and have laughed more than I ever have in my entire 20 years of live. I feel beautiful and I help others whenever I can. I've learned to live one day at a time and even one minute at a time. I heard this women the other day say that when we are in active use we have one leg on yesterday and the other on tomorrow and we are peeing on today. If I could share one thing with anyone it would be just don't pick up for today and worry about only today because we have no control and we can't make plans for tomorrow because we never know what's going to happen. Life is not about the destination its about the journey. I thank GOD everyday for taking things away and making me break down to my knees because I am alive and so lucky to be clean and sober today. I thank GOD for every little step I overcome and for keeping me alive so that I can maybe help prevent someone from overdosing or committing suicide. I love steamboat and am sad I am not home but I am so greatful I am lucky enough to be given a chance and finally trusted by people to be on my own. I pray for everyone back home that they may have faith and courage to go on there own journey. I wish that everyone could have this uplifting sensation that I've felt now that I'm on 37 days of sobriety.
> I miss you all and love you.